I feel like killing myself, day after days!
I wish you know how I feel, how I really feel!
I need somewhere to go, somewhere to be, somewhere where nobody knows. Just peace, away from everyone and everything, right now I can’t stand being next to you after a whole day of looking forward to coming home….
Sometimes I wish life was simple. Sometimes you think you got the best in the world and they fucking shoot you down, like nothing.
Bought me flowers but some how ends up in the mood with me :S sometimes I wish I know what your thinking.
Some people just don’t know what they have got until they lost it….
We all might look like a flower on the outside but on the in side have you ever thought that it there might be poison? I’ve have always think of people in a good way but sometimes there just only so much that you can actually think of….
Your properly thinking what the fuck am I on about but don’t worry, I just like to blah on about shit when I’m feeling depends….
Bank holidays, shouldn’t I be going out your thinking, instead of in bed with my boyfriend, doing nothing, he on his phone 24/7 and never say and sadly I am truly sick of the rack of efforts that he haven’t been making lately. Everyone seems to feel sorry for him just before he cries everytime he says nothing or something happens but what can I do? He just like to cries… Makes me looks like a fucking evil bitch most of the time but what can I do, I’m not a cry baby, plus know one knows how much I actually put up with….. Come home from work I fucking bring him food on the sofa plus drink and then fucking clean up after him and I fucking had enough now, I fucking work too! Have you ever fucking thought of that?! I do 60hrs per week and yet I fucking come home, work some more?! Why dose it feel like a relationship have to be a job? I think time apart is definitely needed! Giving too much and need to fucking realist how much I do!
I always think of you have you ever thought of me? Of how much effort I put in and you don’t even care? And just see right past it…